Start the week smoking?

Sometimes I think how necessary it is for me a change of routine, a change of habits and at the same time how used and trapped I sometimes feel to repeat the same mistakes and behaviors over and over again.

More than a year ago I made my first publication in the community explaining my situation and making myself known a little more here in the world of cannabis friends because it has been several years that I managed to clean my body, mind and organism in general of toxic substances that I used to consume, however just a few months ago I have been able to eliminate the consumption of marijuana and the main reason for this is the high cost and especially the consequences that come with it because getting a good grass here in Venezuela is a bit complicated besides that it is illegal lately the materials that have been obtained are total garbage.

That maybe has affected a little bit my ability to stay calm and keep myself under control maybe many people think wrong about me but I know myself and I know that I am a kind of person that loses my sanity very fast and that I have no patience at all.

• It is here where I can say that I really need a drastic change in my life if I really want to live as you can see today Monday just at 7 a.m. I already had a cup of coffee and a cigarette which I had a hard time getting yesterday because after asking a neighbor for some sugar to another neighbor for some coffee and going to accompany a friend to give me two cigarettes and keep them one for last night and one for this morning.

So that is where I remember those days where I was a big consumer of other toxic substances and I am not talking about cigarette coffee or marijuana I was an addict to another substance I think irrelevant to mention it but yes it is necessary to know that I am totally clean of it but with all this I just mentioned I remembered In those days where I asked other people for help sometimes I asked for money and even food since it is not the same to ask for food or help for medicines when it is necessary but it is very sad when we do it simply to be able to sustain a consumption.

Thanks to the blockchain, my family and my own willpower I have been able to get out of those dark roads to which I do not intend to return, however I feel that this is a new opportunity to make a pact with myself and thus be able to achieve those goals I have planned but the goal of this life is not only to consume food, drinks and substances that motivate us as the colon some drug, although I am not a consumer of alcoholic beverages she also enters in this field that a bad diet and an unbalanced diet is what I really think is affecting me internally because when the stomach feels bad the mind reflects it and if the mind reflects it all around becomes fatal.

I want to give a greeting to all friends and that despite the years that have passed I still get the support of @canna-curate and its community.