My Actifit Report Card: October 9 2020

Hey people!

It was a beautiful Friday today, with almost perfect weather. If the smoke would finally clear out completely it would have been basically perfect. It is on its way out though.

Work went by well even though it was another busy day.

I've been thinking a lot lately about my life and everything and kind of feeling a bit discouraged. I hate this feeling of being in limbo, where I'm doing just "okay" and never being able to advance to the next level.

A big part of that is that I seem to be at a big disadvantage. That's where I end up when I go through everything logically in my head. Having no real "real-world" skills is probably the biggest issue. That seems to be the thing necessary to advance up to the next level in life.

I know I can't continue on this current path for too much longer either, because it's physically exhausting and doesn't quite provide enough. So in the short term I'm okay, but in the long run I'm slowly losing out as the days drag on. Having type 1 diabetes, the lack of affordable/accessible healthcare is a big obstacle. No form of retirement plan is another.

It gets me in this really negative thought space that always spirals out of control whenever thinking about my future. I try to think of any skills I may have that I could leverage into a better source of income, but I always come up blank. I try to think of ways to learn skills, but all I can think of is some kind of schooling and there's no way I could afford that now.

I feel like being an American puts me at a disadvantage in life for becoming "successful". Schooling and healthcare are huge financial burdens, and I'm almost finished paying for one while the other I'll always have to pay if I still feel like living. I just wish I could figure out a way to get ahead instead of feeling trapped and stuck in life...

Goodnight! 🌙😴💤
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